11:33 AM

I feel like I had missed so much things.
I had wasted so many days.
I do admit that a friend of mine was right -
when he said that I was too picky.

I realized that the another main reason
why I gave up on most relationships
was because I wasn''t actually ready for something serious,
something with commitment thing.
I only liked the excitements
without actually wanting to settle down
and compromise the might-have-been problems.

I was such a bad person back then,
and now I took it as a karma for me.
For leaving so many people without even explaining,
now I had seen it my self,
how the world conspired a revenge,
with you leaving.
but would it be fair if you get a karma too?
can't this karma circle just end today?

Now that I wanted to settle down,
building a serious construction of a relationship
with you.
I had to swallow the bitter reality,
I had to accept the painful truth,
I had to cope up with disappointment.

all I want to do is to love you
and being super loyal to you
and taking care of you.

all I want to do is settling down with you,
wearing a ring from you,
and having a future with you.

can't we just love each other,
without being haunted by our past mistakes?

because it is you,
that I would like to spend my days with.