12th June

I once read that perhaps the reason
we want everything,
because we don't want anything enough.
I wonder if the same theory could explain
why you can't be pleased with having just one.

"Am I not good enough for you?
Is there something from me that doesn't please you?"
For a period of time,
I was being full of insecure questions,
those that I shouldn't have had
if I actually loved the right one.

But it's you
who caught my attention
among them who came and tried.
Perhaps it has something to do with your playful persona.
Why are you so charming?
Why are you so appealing?
Why are you so interesting?
Why can't I have enough of you?

So I love you anyway -
telling you that almost everyday,
without even asking for yours in return.
Because being told I love you,
isn't as wanted as being told
I don't want to lose you
Perhaps it's because
you can love more than one person
and tell them everyday,
so your I love you sounds less than special.
But if you tell me
that you're afraid to lose me,
I could feel glad
because I finally mean something
to you.

I suspected you as a man
with a lot of lover options.
That way you won't have to risk
feeling bored with just one.
But it doesn't make me love you any less -
I will still try to convince you
how I am worth for your love.
You would have no idea
how much you would feel loved by me,
how you don't have to hesitate me,
how I could write you love poems
and send them to you randomly,
how I could tell you I love you daily,
how I will take you seriously.
So -
When will you make me be your one and only?